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Self Medicated Full Album by Jelly Roll (US, Nashville, TN)
Self Medicated Full Album
Tuning:E A D G B E
Capo:no capo
1. House of Cards
2. Save Me
3. Promise
4. Overdose
5. Dance With Ghosts
6. Loneliness
7. Afraid of Me
8. 5 AM
9. Johnny and June
10. My Last Joint
11. Rescue Me
12. Better Off Alone
13. A Million Times
14. Feelings
15. Explode
16. Still My Hero
17. Too Far
18. One More Ride
1. House of Cards
[Intro]
Bm D Em Em
Bm D Em Em
[Verse 1]
F#
Ate lunch with the Devil, was dancin' with death
D
I'm makin' the most of the chance I have left
Em
One hand to the sky, one hand on my chest
Em
If you ask if I'm scared, then the answer is yes
F#m
I done been up, I done been poor
D
Not even a dollar, I slept on the floor
Em
I'm mounting the problems, they can't be ignored
Em
I came from the bottom to settle the score
Bm
Lord gave me a shot with this music
D
I promise them no more excuses
Em
I'm tryin' so hard, you can tell by my scars
Em
And my past is so damn abusive
Bm
It's time I tell you what the truth is
D
Some days I swear I feel useless
Em
My happiness has been elusive
Em
I had an encounter with Judas (Judas)
F#m D
Somewhere in the dark, along the line, I lost my mind
Em Em
The old me is a prisoner that's somewhere lost in time
F#m D
I had family I treated right that tried to take my life
Em Em
Look at my back and you won't find no room to put another knife (knife)
[Pre-Chorus]
F#m D
I lost my mind, I got no shame
Em Em
And I keep tryin' not to cry
F# D
Got this ice runnin' through my veins
Em A B
And I got fire in my eyes
[Chorus]
Bm D
All the things that I've done in the darkness
Em Em
All the nights that my mind wasn't whole
Bm D Em
And down in my soul, there's just one thing I know
Em F#m
Heaven ain't a place you go lookin' for
D Em
They all fall down
Em F#m
Just like a house of cards
D Em
They all fall down
Em Bm
And Heaven ain't a place you go lookin' for
[Verse 2]
D
Hold up, Throw me a second, let's roll up
Em
Been struggling, tryna get sober
Em
Fuck it, pass me the drink
A B Bm
And let's pour up (pour up, pour up, pour up, pour up)
D
But don't ask what's in my styrofoam
Em
You can tell the lights are on
Em F#
But there ain't nobody home
F#
Been smokin' that killer shit
D
You can tell that I'm feelin' it
Em
You can tell that I'm really lit
Em
Out of body experience
F# F#
Back in my zone, packin' my bag
D
Ain't been the same since that happened to dad
Em
I've been barefooted while walkin' on glass
Em
Surrounded by flames with a can full of gas
F#m
Ready for war, put on my armor
D
I'm doin' this for my son and my daughter
E Em
As I kneel down at the foot of the Father
Em E F#m
Left all my problems right there at the alter (alter, alter, alter)
D
And he washed away every sin
Em Em
Now I'm back and I'm better than I've ever been
[Pre-Chorus]
F#m D
I lost my mind, I got no shame
Em Em E
And I keep tryin' not to cry
F# D
Got this ice runnin' through my veins
Em A
And I got fire in my eyes
[Chorus]
Bm D
All the things that I've done in the darkness
Em E
All the nights that my mind wasn't whole
Bm D Em
And down in my soul, there's just one thing I know
Em F#m
Heaven ain't a place you go lookin' for
D
They all fall down
Em Em F#m
Just like a house of cards
D
They all fall down
Em Em Em
And Heaven ain't a place you go lookin' for
2. Save Me
[Intro]
C Em Am Fmaj7
[Verse 1]
C Em
Somebody save me, me from myself
Am Fmaj7
I've spent so long living in hell
C Em
They say my lifestyle is bad for my health
Am Fmaj7 G
It's the only thing that seems to help
[Bridge]
C
All of this drinking and smoking is hopeless but
Em
Feel like it's all that I need
Am
Something inside of me's broken I hold on to
Fmaj7 G
Anything that sets me free
[Chorus]
C Em
I'm a lost cause, baby don't waste your time on me
Am
I'm so damaged beyond repair
Fmaj7
Life has shattered my hopes and my dreams
C Em
I'm a lost cause, baby don't waste your time on me
Am
I'm so damaged beyond repair
Fmaj7 G
Life has shattered my hopes and my dreams
[Instrumental]
C Em Am Fmaj7
[Verse 2]
C Em
What if the night sky was missing the moon
Am Fmaj7
There were no shooting stars to use wishing on you
C Em
And all of my sorrows I'd just wash them down
Am Fmaj7
It's the only peace I've ever found
[Bridge]
C
All of this drinking and smoking is hopeless but
Em
Feel like it's all that I need
Am
Something inside of me's broken I hold on to
Fmaj7 G
Anything that sets me free
[Chorus]
C Em
I'm a lost cause, baby don't waste your time on me
Am
I'm so damaged beyond repair
Fmaj7
Life has shattered my hopes and my dreams
C Em
I'm a lost cause, baby don't waste your time on me
Am
I'm so damaged beyond repair
Fmaj7 G
Life has shattered my hopes and my dreams
[Outro]
C Em Am Fmaj7 C
3. Promise
[Intro]
G#m B C# G#m B C#
[Verse 1]
G#m B C#
In a world that's full of hope, why am I alone?
G#m B C#
Had this feeling so long my serotonin's gone
G#m B C#
Even when I get high, why do I feel so low?
G#m B C#
Never good at goodbyes, I hold on
E C# E
I hate the man I see when I see myself
D#m
A reflection of hell....... (oh yeah)
[Chorus]
G#m B
I told myself it’s different it’s so hard to believe
E F#
I know that I won’t change so I sold another dream
G#m B E
All the lies I told are burning holes inside....
D# E
And I don’t, I don’t know why......
D#
I broke a promise to myself
[Verse 2]
G#m B C#
As I stand here again all covered in mud
G#m
And I’m drenched in my sins
B C#
What have I become?
G#m B C# G#m
I said the last time that would be my last time
B C#
Not good at goodbyes, I hold on
E C# C#m E
If I jumped off this ledge would you catch my fall?
D#m
Would you care at all........
[Chorus]
G#m B
I told myself it’s different it’s so hard to believe
E F#
I know that I won’t change so I sold another dream
G#m B E
All the lies I told are burning holes inside.....
D# E
And I don’t, I don’t know why.......
D#
I broke a promise to myself
[Bridge]
E
All the stages of shaken
C#m
All the roads that I’ve taken
G#m
Wondering if I can really make it
F#
Feeling so depressed I’ve been humbled and humiliated
E C#m
All the truth I’ve mistaken for the things
G#m
I thought saved me, It’s like nobody knows
D#
At any given second I feel like I might explode
[Chorus]
G#m B
I told myself it’s different it’s so hard to believe
C# G#m B C#
I know that I'll never change so I sold another dream
G#m B E
All the lies I told are burning holes inside....
F# G#m B E
And I don’t, I don’t know why.........
D# E
And I don’t, I don’t know why.........
D# G#m
I broke a promise to myself....
4. Overdose
[Intro]
D#m D#m Fm Fm
F# F# G#m G#m
[Verse 1]
D#m
Every day's harder, been trying to change
D#m
But lately I really been feeling the urge
Fm
Dealing with demons, been hearing 'em speaking
Fm F#
And popping this shit just to deal with the nerves (nerves, nerves, nerves)
F# G#m
And I don't know who I am anymore
G#m
Feel like the past is knocking at my door
D#m D#m
Bound by these chains, my old habits won't let go of me
Fm Fm
I'm somewhere between the man I was and who I wanna be
F# F#
Struggle with recovery, tryna find inner peace
G#m G#m D#m
Tryna find a way to quit my need to feed the inner beast (beast, beast, beast)
D#m D#m
And my back's against the wall (wall, wall, wall)
Fm F#
And I could lose it all (lose it all, all)
F# G#m
There's a freedom that's involved (involved, involved)
G#m
Every time I fall
[Chorus]
D#m
Hopeless
D#m Fm
Why do I always feel so hopeless?
Fm F#
I say I love it, but it's really 'cause I need it
F#
This addiction I keep feeding
G#m
I can't have this feeling
G#m
I know I'ma need a freedom
D#m
But I'm hopeless
D#m Fm
Why do I always feel so hopeless?
Fm F#
I fucking hate it but I feel like I can't beat it
F#
I could fly away this evening
G#m G#m
But I don't wanna overdose
[Verse 2]
D#m D#m
Now it's four in the mornin' and I'm up here feeling lonely
Fm Fm
Inside this fucking head of mine and you don't even know me
F# F#
I'm over you,
G#m G#m
But I ain't over you
D#m
Wake me up, I've been dreaming
D#m
In and out of love, I'm leaning
Fm
Feeling like a fucking pea praying
Fm
A relapse just might heal me
F# F#
I'm overdue,
G#m G#m
Being over you
D#m D#m
How could you love me? How can you hate me, How come I don't give a fuck?
Fm Fm
Like you call me is in me, And I got one hell of a buzz
F# F#
High as a fuck, light that all up, Substance are fighting in us
G#m
Put it on you, put it on me
N.C.
I'm all in, calling your bluff
[Chorus]
D#m
Hopeless
D#m Fm
Why do I always feel so hopeless?
Fm F#
I say I love it, but it's really 'cause I need it
F#
This addiction I keep feeding
G#m
I can't have this feeling
G#m
I know I'ma need a freedom
D#m
But I'm hopeless
D#m Fm
Why do I always feel so hopeless?
Fm F#
I fucking hate it but I feel like I can't beat it
F#
I could fly away this evening
G#m G#m
But I don't wanna overdose
5. Dance With Ghosts
[Intro]
Bm G Am Em D G
Am Em D G
Only dance with ghosts
Am Em D
Writings on the wall
E Em Em
Am Em Em Em Am
[Verse 1]
Em Em
So pretty and savage, she opened her bag, I'm swear that she's bad as can be
G G A
And all of them bothers, they throwing them dollars, but she's only fucking
with me
Em Em
She so smooth, she's so classy, she's so ratchet, she's so sassy,
G Am
She's so nasty, so fancy and trashy yeah
Em F#
So independent, she don't need shit from me, no she don't need nothing at all
G A
They ain't fucking with her when it come to money, man she gon' out-hustle
them all
Em Em G
She's so fine, she's so sweet, she's all mine, she smokes weed, she goes long,
I go deep
Am C A
On that drink, she's so street........
[Pre-Chorus]
Em Em
Late night she's on a mission
Em Am
She only dances with ghosts (Only dance with ghosts)
Em Em Em A Em
Sits in the dark and listens to writings on the wall (Writings on the wall)
[Chorus]
Em G
She's just looking for something to hold........
Am Em
She be getting high but laying low
Em G
She's so afraid that she's gon' be alone
Am C
She gon' grip 'em 'til they let her go
C
Only dance with ghosts
[Post-Chorus]
Em F#m
Stupid, told me not to lose myself
G A
Inside my own addictions, Lord I need some help
Em F#m
The answer's stolen, and I prayed my prayers
G
And I keep looking up but
N.C.
Ain't nobody there
[Verse 2]
Em F#m
The boss of the bitches, I ain't gotta mention, she really be tricking them
tricks
G A
I know that she loyal, she ain't got shit for 'em, it's just like her hitting
the lick
Em F#m G
She's so brave, I'm amazed, her head game is insane, that sex game is the
A
same, it's the flame yeah
Em Em
Sometimes she's sober, and sometimes she's fucking up but you'll never know
G Am
And out of her body if she's on that molly, or if she done fucked with her
nose
Em F#m
And she do what she want and it's still on the low
G Am C Am
Ain't no one gotta know, yeah she sticks to the code (the code, the code)
[Pre-Chorus]
Em Em
Late night she's on a mission
Em Am
She only dances with ghosts (Only dance with ghosts)
Em Em Em Am
Sits in the dark and listens to writings on the wall (Writings on the wall)
Em
[Chorus]
Em G
She's just looking for something to hold
Am Em
She be getting high but laying low
Em F#m Gm G
She's so afraid that she's gon' be alone
Am C
She gon' grip 'em 'til they let her go
C
Only dance with ghosts
[Post-Chorus]
Em Em
Stupid, told me not to lose myself
G A
Inside my own addictions, Lord I need some help
Em Em
The answer's stolen, and I prayed my prayers
G
And I keep looking up
N.C.
But ain't nobody there
[Outro]
Em Em G Am
Em Em G Am
Em Em G Am
Em G G Am
Am Am
6. Loneliness
[Intro]
N.C.
You ever heard
C#m E
The sinners prayer?
A A
You ever had life come and shatter your dreams?
C#m E
You ever heard the sinners prayer?
A
You ever talk to God and then in turned into
N.C.
A scream?
[Verse 1]
C#m
The weed isn't helping, the liquor don't work
E
I done did all I can, I'm still feeling this hurt
A
I been trying to change, I still feel like I'm cursed
A
Well the drugs and the stress had appealed to me first
C#m
It comes and it goes, it's all that I know
E
No matter what all the problems just go
A
Rolled up to smoked, chopped up the dough
A
Been trying to fill up this hole in my soul
C#m
I'm on this lonely road, I need the Holy ghost
E
Lord, won't you come and save me?
A
I'm such a broken soul, I feel like no one knows
A
Stress I'm dealing with lately
C#m Em E
It's my last shot for me to save my spot
A A C#m
And they don't make pain pills to help the pain I got
[Chorus]
E A A
Loneliness is all I've ever known
C#m E
It starts to take it's toll
A A C#m
A heart can turn to stone......
E A A
Loneliness is all I've ever known
C#m E
No matter where I go
A A
I'd rather be alone......
[Post-Chorus]
C#m E A A B
The drugs in my system are taking my spirit and breaking me down.....
C#m E A A
I'll drown in this liquor and scream at the mirror, but no one's around
[Verse 2]
C#m
I drink so much Crown, Drained my account
E A
Used to pray, I need faith these days
A
I pray I pass out
C#m
Finally got to that tippin' point
E
I don't really care about this rap shit no more
A
Most likely to get divorced before next year
A
Better yet, wind up dead instead, Hanging suspended from the extension cord
C#m
I pray to God, quit toying with me, kill me please
E
My body feeling like a wilted leaf
A
I can't keep down food, my liver protruding
A
Through my ribs, drinking liquor like it's New Year's Eve
C#m
But it's Monday, I'm breaking one shade
E
I really wanna take my anger out on some ones face
A
It's funny, all the money I just saved is gone, someone's dead
A
It got swept underneath the rug with some blood stains
C#m
I never listened when they told me it's a dumb dream
E
The industry is full of greedy cash
A
And also some of them worry that we on things
A
Don't underestimate the ignorance
C#m
I used to want to pull the trigger then,
E
But I'm sober now and I'm feeling so good
A
Don't pull it, don't pull it
A
Only thing getting stuck in my head is this Jelly Roll hook
C#m
So long
[Chorus]
E A A
Loneliness is all I've ever known
C#m E
It starts to take it's toll
A A C#m
A heart can turn to stone......
E A A
Loneliness is all I've ever known
C#m E
No matter where I go
A A
I'd rather be alone.....
[Post-Chorus]
Em E A A
The drugs in my system are taking my spirit and breaking me down.......
C#m E A A
I'll drown in this liquor and scream at the mirror when no one's around
7. Afraid of Me
[Verse 1]
D#m B
I take a moment just to breathe when I'm feeling that stress
G#m F#
With my sins on my sleeve, with what heart I have left
D#m B
Til I take my last breath, I will battle with the flesh
G#m F#
I picked the side for which I ride, there ain't no straddle in the fizz (Lord,
D#m
please)
B
I feel the time passing by
G#m F#
I can feel the crash coming, I been on a manic high
D#m B
Reminisce to cooking packs, changed my life, no looking back
G#m F#
The only man I fear is the reflection I'm looking at
D#m B
Only time I'm ever happy is when I'm keeping a buzz
G#m F#
I feel a wall around myself and the people I love
D#m B
Lord, protect me from the storm, I feel the thunder again
G#m F#
I done prayed before with a pistol under my chin
D#m
Lord please
[Pre-Chorus]
B
Cause I know that I've been living wrong
G#m C#
All along, I just didn't wanna be alone
D#m B
Pray for me, cause I know that I've been living wrong
G#m G#
All along, I just didn't wanna be alone
[Chorus]
D#m B
I'm so afraid of me
G#m F#
My demons keep chasing me
D#m B
There ain't no saving me
G#m F# D#m
I can't get away from me
B
Cause I know that I've been living wrong
G#m F# D#m
I can't get away from me
B
I just didn't wanna be alone
G#m F# D#m B
I can't get away from me..........
G#m F# D#m B
I can't get away from me..........
G#m F#
I can't get away from me
[Verse 2]
D#m D#m
Still running from the Devil, Stiletto's on the gas pedal
D#m D# D#m
Pain so high that she crying in a falsetto
D#m D# D#m
Echos of my last words' louder than her screams
G#m F#
Living in a nightmare, I promised her a dream
D#m B
But I promise this ain't her, this is me
G#m F#
My life is slipping through my hand, her love's at my feet
D#m B
I beat myself up 'til my eyes swelled shut
G#m F#
So I can't see the love and the choice that's in front of me, fuck
D#m B G#m
I feel stuck in a rut, deep pain in my gut
F# D#m
I'm an angel to my demons that duck that cup
B
Built a wall around my heart not to hide
G#m F#
It's to keep my love safe from what I see inside
[Pre-Chorus]
D#m B
Pray for me, cause I know that I've been living wrong
G#m C#
All along, I just didn't wanna be alone
D#m B
Pray for me, cause I know that I've been living wrong
G#m G#
All along, I just didn't wanna be alone
[Chorus]
D#m B
I'm so afraid of me
G#m F#
My demons keep chasing me
D#m B
There ain't no saving me
G#m F# D#m
I can't get away from me...
B
Pray for me 'cause I know that I've been living wrong
G#m F#
I can't get away from me
D#m B
Pray for me, I just didn't wanna be alone
G#m F# D#m B
I can't get away from me..........
G#m F# D#m B
I can't get away from me..........
G#m G#
I can't get away from
8. 5 AM
[Intro]
Dm C Bb Bb C
Dm C Bb Bb
[Verse 1]
C Dm C
It's 5 AM and I'm fucked up again
Bb Bb
About to watch the sun come busting in
C Dm C
I swore that I would change when no one was around
Bb Bb
Now I'm gasping for air like I'm about to drown
C Dm C
But here I go with that codeine in that white cup, with that cocaine on that
counter
Bb Bb C
Swear to God I wasn't looking for no problems when I found them
Dm C
It's a long way when you falling down, when you sitting on top of that
mountain
Bb Bb C
Cause I've been living life with no boundaries
[Pre-Chorus]
Dm C Bb
I've been living with a heart that's full of coke
Bb C Dm
Ooh, I'm so out of control
C Bb
I'm better off being alone
Bb
Ooh, I'm so out of control
[Chorus]
C Dm C
It's 5 AM and I'm fucked up again
Bb Bb
About to watch the sun come busting in
C Dm C
It's 5 AM and I'm fucked up again
Bb Bb
About to watch the sun come busting in
C Dm C Bb Bb
I swore that I would change but I ain't changed yet, (I'm fucked up)
C Dm C
I swore that I would change but I ain't changed yet
[Verse 2]
Bb Bb
What up Jelly?
C Dm Dm
I'm still try'na learn all the do's and the don'ts
C
Abusive, I'm used to just losing control
Bb Bb
What a loser, I choose to be stupid, I know
Cm
I'm using this music, it's sooth for the soul
Dm
It's hard for me to admit this is reality
C
I'm still try'na cope with this addictive personality
Bb
I've been feeling like the victim to insanity
Bb C
That's probably why I keep on drinking through the agony
Dm
I start my day with a shot and a cigarette
C
I noticed if I'm drunk, then I'm not gonna get upset
Bb
Even had a dream that I lost all my inner-rest
Bb C
Seven-day bender, all I gots like a mickey left
Dm
Now I gotta try to drown all the voices
C
Got a lot of problems but I'm bound to avoid 'em
Bb
Guess I gotta learn how to make choices
Bb C
I'm drunk right now so it's pointless
[Pre-Chorus]
Dm C Bb
I've been living with a heart that's full of coke
Bb C Dm
Ooh, I'm so out of control
C Bb
I'm better off being alone
Bb
Ooh, I'm so out of control
[Chorus]
C Dm C
It's 5 AM and I'm fucked up again
Bb Bb
About to watch the sun come busting in
C Dm C
It's 5 AM and I'm fucked up again
Bb Bb
About to watch the sun come busting in
C Dm C Bb Bb
I swore that I would change but I ain't changed yet, (I'm fucked up)
C Dm C Bb
I swore that I would change but I ain't changed yet
[Verse 3]
Bb C
I know how it goes, yo
Dm
Here I go with that double cup
C
Had a good thing, I'ma fuck it up
Bb
Couple old homies used to run with us
Bb C
Got themselves jumped like Double Dutch
Dm
Cause they dangerously they been out of bounds
C
I been 'round the town, young and wylin' out
Bb
Look at my accounts, know I'm really winning
Bb C
But inside an ocean, in my mind I drown
Dm
I ain't wanna be all that
C
They wonder how I seen all that
Bb
Now I really been a fiend, ah yeah
Bb C
Lost you 'cause the dream all bad (all bad)
Dm
My problems solved when that bottle calls
C
Then my psycho runs like the the dryer
Bb
I take two hits to get higher
Bb
Look outside, the sun start to rising
[Chorus]
Dm C
It's 5 AM and I'm fucked up again
Bb Bb
About to watch the sun come busting in
C Dm C
It's 5 AM and I'm fucked up again
Bb Bb
About to watch the sun come busting in
C Dm C Bb Bb
I swore that I would change but I ain't changed yet, (I'm fucked up)
C Dm C Bb
I swore that I would change but I ain't changed yet
Bb C
Swore that I would change but I ain't changed yet
9. Johnny and June
[Intro]
Dm Bb C C
Dm Bb C C
[Verse 1]
Dm Bb
Havin' you and livin' life with no care's a big difference
C C
It's somethin' 'bout the love that we share, it hits different
Dm Bb
So baby we can ride, whatever you wanna do
C C
And if the police pull us over I ain't worried 'bout you
Dm Bb
I know that you're gonna keep it solid, I know you'll never break
C C
I know that you're gon' post my bail and do whatever it takes
Dm Bb
Surrounded by fakes and you're the only thing I see that's real
C Bb
You picked this broken man up, you're what I need to heal
[Pre-Chorus]
Dm Bb
So whatever you need, baby, I'll be there
C C
I can see us old and grey, a porch and two rockin' chairs
Dm Bb
Bonnie and Clyde, yeah, that's cool
C C
But it's a whole different vibe with me and you
[Chorus]
Dm Bb
I just wanna love like Johnny and June
C C
We can leave tomorrow, take a trip to the moon
Dm
Into the ring of fire, met a boy named Sue
Bb C Bb
But now I walk the line and it's all 'cause of you
Dm Bb
Daddy sang bass, yeah, I miss him so bad
C C
Sunday mornin' comin' down, I just wanna go back
Dm Bb
Baby, it's whatever you wanna do
C C Dm Bb C C
I just wanna love like Johnny and June, Johnny and June
[Verse 2]
Dm Bb
Have you ever had an angel fly down and stand before you?
C C
By amazed by her beauty and then find out that she's loyal
Dm Bb
That's that once in a lifetime, my partner in crime
C C
Til the wheels fall off we put it all on the line
Dm Bb
I knew it when we met there'd be storms we would weather
C C
And you crack the finest of diamonds with dew pressure
Dm Bb
We got the kinda story that only gets better
C C
And sparks a forever and ends never
[Pre-Chorus]
Dm Bb
Carry my last name, I'm carrying you
C C
The best decision I ever made was marrying you
Dm Bb
Mickey and Mallory, yeah that's cool
C C
It's a whole different vibe with me and you
[Chorus]
Dm Bb
I just wanna love like Johnny and June
C C
We can leave tomorrow, take a trip to the moon
Dm
Into the ring of fire, met a boy named Sue
Bb C C
But now I walk the line and it's all 'cause of you
Dm Bb
Daddy sang bass, yeah, I miss him so bad
C C
Sunday mornin' comin' down, I just wanna go back
Dm Bb
Baby, it's whatever you wanna do
C C Dm
I just wanna love like Johnny and June, Johnny and June
[Outro]
Bb C C Dm
Bb C C Cm C5
10. My Last Joint
[Intro]
Em C
Smoking weed and say your prayers
E E
Liquor stores are everywhere
C C
Wonder if they ever cared?
[Verse 1]
D Em Em
I live in the fast lane, committed so I cut off the brake line
C C
Ain't with the gossip, fuck what you done heard from the grapevine
Em Em
Dreaming so I had the vision I had to get it
C C B
Nights with the baddest women, couple of bad decisions
Em Em
Feeling in the city, nights turn to early mornings
C C
Mama prayin' for us, we ignored the early warnings
B Em Em
On the run from the war the preacher called me up to pray
E C C B
Asked me if I'll ever change, I told him "Not today"
Em Em
I've been living like this for too long
C C B
I don't know if I'll ever move on
Em Em
Same old beat but it's a new song
C C B
Paranoid so I sleep with my shoes on
[Chorus]
Em Em C C
I just want my last joint, tell me what's the point 'cause I'm still fucked up
C B
Em Em C C C
I've been living in a codeine dream but this lean can't fill me up
B Em Em C C
No matter what, it's all the same
B Em Em C Bm
It's not enough to kill my pain
Em Em C C
I just want my last joint, tell me what's the point 'cause I'm still fucked up
D
B Em Em C D
No matter what, it's all the same
[Verse]
Em Em
Fill the paper with reefer then go and hit the liquor store
C C B
That bottle and Mary Jane's the only friend I know
Em Em
I had people I love that I end up burying
C Bm
How'd they go from popping pills to shooting heroine?
Em Em
Thinkin' 'bout my partner, I'm standing at his grave
C C B
I'm tryna tell his mama "It's gon' be okay"
Em
What do you say when somebody's so heart-broke?
Em C C
Their rent's past due and they're late on their car note?
Bm
I've been through it
Em Em
I keep looking for the light at the end of the tunnel
C C C E
It's my life and I'm the type that keeps fighting the struggle
Em Em
Since a youngin, always found my way right to the trouble
C Em
I think the storm's coming, I feel lightning and thunder
[Chorus]
Em Em C C
I just want my last joint, tell me what's the point 'cause I'm still fucked up
B Em
Em Em C
I've been living in a codeine dream but this lean can't fill me up
Bm Em Em C Bm
No matter what, it's all the same
B Em Em C Bm
It's not enough to kill my pain
Em Em C C
I just want my last joint, tell me what's the point 'cause I'm still fucked up
Bm
Em Em C C Bm
I've been living in a codeine dream but this lean can't fill me up
Em Em E C Bm
No matter what, it's all the same
Em Em C
It's not enough to kill my pain
[Outro]
Bm Em D C D
11. Rescue Me
[Intro]
Em
Em Em
I put this message in a bottle and I send it down yonder
E D Em
So you see what I got to say
Em C D Em
When you from the bottom feel like the biggest problem
G D
It's all that we got in common today
[Verse 1]
Em
Lost one of my homies and he ain't even dead
Em C D
Can't deal with 'em 'cause of something he said
Em Em
Beat the case with the state and was ducking the feds
C
I done been on the run and I was running out of breath
Em Em
Try'na run it back up 'til I run out of room in the safe
C D
Feel like I was running in place
Em
On a downard front I stay
Em C
we out grew our stay, like I need to move outta state
Em Em
Know that I knew better, wish I could do better
C D
Swear I'm still stuck in my ways
Em Em C
Mama keep stressing me, ask 'bout my rest, yeah every couple of days
Em Em C
I got the rest and you prob' got the best of me, that was another mistake
D Em C
They don't understand I'm a fucking loose cannon that never had something to
say
Em
Shoot on site
[Chorus]
Em E C
I'm sending out an SOS, (SOS)
C Em
Somebody rescue me
Em Cmaj7
I'm in over my head
C Em
And I can barely breathe
Em D C C D Em
I need time to heal, I need time to grieve
Em D C
I need time to kill
C
The beast inside of me
[Verse 2]
Em Em C D
I have been battling flesh, I give my all and it fucks with my energy
Em C
I am at war with myself, my only enemy is the inner me
Em Em C D
It's like I'm on fire, deep in my chest that shit is burning in me
Em C
I done lost Chizzle and Chop, Mono and Pops, I'm learning to grieve
Em Em C D
And if these tears could talk, I wonder what they would say to me
Em C
I hear Chizzle's voice in my head, "Don't let that shit fuck up your day"
Em Em C
I would by lying if I said these last couple years I have not been so fucking
D
depressed
Em Cm C
Every day that I wake up the first thing I think of is playing some Russian
Em
Roulette
[Chorus]
Em E C
I'm sending out an SOS, (SOS)
C Em
Somebody rescue me
Em C
I'm in over my head
C Em
And I can barely breathe
Em D C
I need time to heal,
C Em
I need time to grieve
Em C
I need time to kill
C Em
The beast inside of me
12. Better Off Alone
[Intro]
Am Am Am Am
Em Em Em
[Verse]
Em Am Am Am
I'm drowning in bourbon
Am Am Am Am
Numbing my pain
Am F F
Fighting with demons, oh Lord
Em Em Am Am
I just wish that they'd go away
Am Am Am Am
There's no light in the day
Am Am Am Am Am
Don't know how much more I can take, oh no
Am F
Afraid of tomorrow
F Em Em Am Am Am Am F
The end of this bottle ain't that far away
[Chorus]
F G G Am Am Am
I don't know where I went wrong
Am F F G G Am
I've walked a million miles and now I'm so far from home
Am Am Am F F
And I'm begging and pleading for someone to help me
G G
Something won't let me
E7 E7 Am
FInd out where I belong
Am F F F F E E
There's no use in carrying on, oh no
E Am Am Am Am
I'm better off alone
Am Em Em
Oh, owwwww
[Verse]
Am Am Am Am
At the end of my rope
Am Am Am Am Am
I'm so close to the edge
Am F
In fear of falling
F Em Em Am Am Am
Cause I know there's no one to catch me down there
Am Am Am
So I hide these scars
Am Am Am Am Am
They say make you a man
Am F
Afraid of a feeling
F Em Em Am Am Am F
That bring back the demons that's stuck in my head
[Chorus]
F G G Am Am Am
I don't know where I went wrong
Am F F G G Am
I've walked a million miles and now I'm so far from home
Am Am Am F F
And I'm begging and pleading for someone to help me
G G
Something won't let me
E E Am
Find out where I belong
Am F F F F E E
There's no use in carrying on, oh no
E E F F G
I'm better off alone
G Am Am
Yes I am
Am Am F F
I'm better off alone
G G
Oh,oh owwwwwww
Am Am Am
yeah,yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh
Am F F
I know I need you right now
[Outro]
G G
Lord, just somehow
E E Am
Won't you come and help this old soul
Am F F F
And I know
F E E
Yes, I know
E E E Am Am
I'm better off alone
Am Em Em
Mmmmmmmmm
Em Em Am Am
I'm better off alone
13. A Million Times
[Intro]
C#m E A B B
C#m E A B B
[Verse 1]
C#m E
I roll up to smoke, I started to blow
A B
I took me a trip down an old back road
C#m E
And time moves fast, and nothing lasts
A B
I'm still traumatized by my thoughts of the past
C#m E
In the kitchen you was doing the dishes
A B
Starting off with some kissing and then we got down to business
C#m E
Ended up by the stove, my hands around your throat
A B
Just the way you like it baby, you already know
[Pre-Chorus]
C#m
Shorty won't let me be, (won't let me be)
E
She mental
A B
I fucked up again, she 'bout to act up
C#m E
What's that long face for? That's that sad stuff
A B
These back roads don't ride like that road where you rode with me
[Chorus]
C#m E A B
You broke my heart a million times, but I won't let it happen
C#m E A B
You got your space and I got mine, but I won't let it happen
C#m7 E A B
I knew, I knew, these back roads don't ride like that road where you rode with
me
C#m E A B
I knew, I knew, these back roads don't ride like that road where you rode with
me
[Post-Chorus]
C#m E A
So where do we go.... from here?
B C#m
When it all used to be so clear
E A
You got me facing the things I fear
B
Has it all just disappeared?
[Verse 2]
C#m E
Been through it, this ain't nothing new to me
A B
Spend my time confusing you, got used to you just using me
C#m E
Always back and forth, dealing with each other's scrutiny
A B C#m
We did it so ruthlessly yet it was so beautifully
E
Wish I could take it all back
A B
Swear I would do anything to keep that train on the tracks
C#m E
There's so much pain in my chest, thinking of lessons I learned
A B
I watched the house go up in flames and I just let that shit burn (burn)
[Pre-Chorus]
C#m
Shorty won't let me be, (won't let me be)
E
She mental
A B
I fucked up again, she 'bout to act up
C#m E
What's that long face for? That's that sad stuff
A B
These back roads don't ride like that road where you rode with me
[Chorus]
C#m E A B
You broke my heart a million times, but I won't let it happen
C#m E A B
You got your space and I got mine, but I won't let it happen
C#m E A B
I knew, I knew these back roads don't ride like that road where you rode with
me
C#m E A B
I knew, I knew these back roads don't ride like that road where you rode with
me
[Post-Chorus]
C#m E A
So where do we go...... from here?
B C#m
When it all used to be so clear
E A
You got me facing the things I fear
B
Has it all just disappeared?
14. Feelings
[Intro]
Bm Bm G G
Bm Bm G G
[Chorus]
Bm Bm
What.... I'm feeling,
G G
My heart is as numb as my taste
Bm Bm
But it.... keeps beating,
G G
Watching as nights turn to days
Bm Bm
Can't feel my face, can't shake this pain
G G
Stuck in my ways, staring in space
Bm Bm
So please don't leave me,
G G
Heaven is so far away, So far away
[Verse 1]
Bm Bm
Call someone you love, ever cry yourself to sleep?
G G
Had a puddle on your pillow, and still didn't find no peace?
Bm Bm
I've made mistakes out of desperation
G G
I'm in a place of hate and self-deprecation
Bm Bm
Sleep-deprivation, I've been on a three-day bender
G G
From the other side, I can find my peace amongst the sinners
Bm Bm
I've been try'na stay sane, put my sorrows in that cup
G G
I've been tryna numb my pain with a bottle and a bud
Bm Bm
Now my heart's racing and I feel the pain draining
G G
And it's like the sun's blazing and I think the rain's fading
Bm Bm
I've learned that happiness is really only temporary
G
Reading your obituary,
N.C.
Smoking at the cemetery
[Chorus]
Bm Bm G G
What.... I'm feeling, my heart is as numb as my taste
Bm Bm G
But it keeps beating....., watching as nights turn to days
G Bm
Can't feel my face, can't shake this pain
Bm G
Stuck in my ways, staring in space
Bm Bm
So please don't leave me,
G
Heaven is so far away
G
So far away
[Verse 2]
Bm Bm
I live in this depression, a sadness I can't shake (can't shake)
G G
When every conversation's forced, every smile's faked (smile's faked)
Bm Bm G G
Unless we talking Chloe, I ain't felt shit since '03, nah
Bm
And just to be clear (be clear)
Bm G
she's the only thing keeping me here
G
Cause home won't be here I promise you
Bm Bm G G
I hear, I hear, I hear, everything they say about me (everything they say
about me)
Bm Bm G
I hate, I hate, Don't already hate everything about me
N.C.
Hate everything about me
[Chorus]
B Bm Bm G G
What I'm feeling, my heart is as numb as my taste
Bm Bm G
But it keeps beating, watching as nights turn to days
G Bm
Can't feel my face, can't shake this pain
Bm G G
Stuck in my ways, staring in space
Bm Bm G G
So please don't leave me, Heaven is so far away
G
So far away
15. Explode
[Chorus]
Em Em Em
Explode, explode, explode, explode (explode)
D Am
And now is the only way left to go
Em Em Em
Explode, explode, explode, explode (explode)
D Am
I'm really out in no time, no
[Verse 1]
Em
I heard that the liquor and a bag of bud
Em
Helps me forget what my problems was
Em Dm Em
I need a buzz, I need some love
Am
I need a little something that can pick me up
Em
Light it up and get so high
Em
Feel like I can kiss the sky
Em Dm Em
And I heard you're so low
Am
So I don't explode
Em
How can I continue when I'm dealing with these issues?
Em
Put my problems in the paper and I roll 'em up
Em
Ain't no sense in me stressing, I'll just have another session
Em Am
Tell 'em I don't give a fuck, I'll take another puff
Em
Feel like I've been kicked and bruised
Em
Feel like I'm at the bottom, ain't got shit to lose
Em
Been flipped and fooled, fuck it I've been tricked and used
Em Am
This shit was cool until somebody lit the fuse
[Chorus]
Em Em Em
Explode, explode, explode, explode (explode)
D Am
And now is the only way left to go
Em Em Em
Explode, explode, explode, explode (explode)
D Am
I'm really out in no time, no
[Post-Chorus]
Em
Eyes half shut
Em
Windows down with my middle fingers up (With my middle fingers up)
Em
I'm so sick of bad luck (Bad luck)
Em Am
Fuck the world, let me roll one up (Let me roll one up)
Em
It's just one of those days (It's just one of those days)
Em
That I don't give a fuck (That I don't give a fuck)
Em
It's just one of those days (It's just one of those days)
Em Am
That I don't give a fuck (That I don't give a fuck)
[Verse 2]
Em
Listen, Try'na tell myself that shit' getting better
Em
But got them demons in my mind, it's like my head is forever
Em
With this depression at the center of my mental, I've entered
Em Am
Into a new dimension, where there ain't a day of sunny weather
Em
Tried to pull myself up out of it with shit that I'm taking
Em
With no prescription written in the phycologist of medication
Em
With these downers when I'm down, it's a hell of a combination
Em Am
And I'm filling up with stimulants to keep my concentration
Em
And I've been fighting with my lady a lot
Em
I can't even tell who's fault it is most of the time
Em
Got these voices in my head, praying they stop
Em Am
Got me crushing down pills and I'm blowing a line with rolled 20s
Em
Thinking back when I had no money
Em
Now I got it all, but still feel like there's nobody
Em
Who could ever understand what I feel inside
Em Am
But I'm a Phoenix, so still I rise, it won't stop me
Webby
[Chorus]
Em Em Em
Explode, explode, explode, explode (explode)
D Am
And that's the only way left to go
Em Em Em
Explode, explode, explode, explode (explode)
D Am
I'm really out in no time, no
[Post-Chorus]
Em
Eyes half shut
Em
Windows down with my middle fingers up (With my middle fingers up)
Em
I'm so sick of bad luck (Bad luck)
Em Am
Fuck the world, let me roll one up (Let me roll one up)
Em
It's just one of those days (It's just one of those days)
Em
That I don't give a fuck (That I don't give a fuck)
Em
It's just one of those days (It's just one of those days)
Em Am Em
That I don't give a fuck (That I don't give a fuck)
16. Still My Hero
[Intro]
D Bm A G D
D Bm7 A G D
[Verse 1]
Bm A G D
Daddy can you hear me? Can you see me? Can you free me?
Bm
I'm shackled to your memory
A G D
Am I everything that you thought I'd be?
D Dm A
The day you laid your armor down and took your last breath just keeps
G D
replaying now
D A
I'm doing my best to be strong for everyone around
G D
But tonight I'm breaking down
D A G
Thinking 'bout the lessons you taught, you got your point across with the ways
D
you talked
D A G
I watched you move mountains to me, but then I watched you struggle to walk
D
Dm Bm
And every day burns like the last one
A G D
Hope you forgive me for the times I was a bad son
D Dm Bm A D D
But Lord, you took my hero from me when you know I only had one ((one)
[Pre-Chorus]
D Dm A
That was my heart you broke
G D
That was my friend you stole
D Bm
That was the man.....
A G
That made me who I am......
D Bm A
Now you see this mask I wear
G
Out in the sun's despair
D Bm
Goodbye plans
A G
And I guess I'll never understand......
[Chorus]
D Bm
Still my hero.....
D G
Still my hero.....
D Bm
Still my hero.....
D G
Still my hero.....
[Instrumental]
D Bm D G
[Verse 2]
D Bm
Some days I sit and reminisce and I think of the past
A G
How do we lose something we love and it just happens in a flash?
D Bm
It's just the cycle of life, I swear it happened so fast
A G
You watched me take my first breath, I watched you take your last
D Dm
Last night I couldn't sleep so I got up and took me a ride
Bm A G
I took a drive through Antioch, I smoked a joint, and I cried
D Bm
I watched you stare death in the face without a fear in your eyes
A G
You taught me how I should live, you taught me how I should die
D Bm
Wish I could have the strength you had as you laid there on that bed
A G
Staring at death, I remember every word that you said
D Bm
Without a hint of bitterness, you sat there shaking your head
A G
Laughing and telling stories about the life you had led
D Bm
While you was alive is when we gave you flowers
A G
You taught me love is the way a man stays in power
D Bm
You taught me always be brave and stay away from cowards
A G
I only wish that Heaven had visitation hours
D Bm
I can't lie, me and my brothers, we've been taking it hard
A
Lately this is how it is, conversations
N.C. D
With God is like
[Pre-Chorus]
Bm A
That was my heart you broke
G D
That was my friend you stole
Dm
That was the man
D A G
That made me who I am......
D Bm A
Now you see this mask I wear
G D
Out in the sun's despair
Bm
Goodbye plans
A G
And I guess I'll never understand......
[Chorus]
D Bm
Still my hero.....
D G
Still my hero.....
D Bm
Still my hero.....
D G
Still my hero.....
[Outro]
D Bm D G
17. Too Far
[Chorus]
N.C.
I hope you show up
Am Am
In that black dress
Dm G
You know, that one you never keep on too long
Am
I hope you're with me 'til my last breath
Am Dm Dm
Like a record to the needle when they playing this song
Am Am
You're the only one that (one that)
Dm Dm
Could ever play me like I play this guitar
Am Am
Baby I ain't dead yet (dead yet)
Dm Dm
So go and and smash the pedal in this getaway car
Am Am Dm Dm
Let's take it too far, too far....
Dm Am Am Dm Dm
Too far........, mhh
[Verse]
Am Am
Raised on the west coast, but she's loving my country grammar
Dm Dm
This that true romance, it's like Clarence and Alabama
Am Am
Tarantino love stories, so dark and so beautiful
Dm Dm
To ever find a love like this is so unusual
Am
I know that you're feeling my vibe
Am
Hop in this truck and let's ride
Dm Dm
Don't give a fuck, I feel the rush, Let's roll one up and get high
Am Am
City to city, baby, we gon' keep those tides turning
Dm Dm
Look in your eyes mama, and I can see that fire burning
[Chorus]
Am Am
I hope you show up in that black dress (that black dress)
Dm Dm
You know, that one you never keep on too long
Am
I hope you're with me 'til my last breath
Am Dm Dm
Like a record to the needle when they playing this song
Am Am
You're the only one that (one that)
Dm Dm
Could ever play me like I play this guitar
Am Am
Baby I ain't dead yet,
Dm Dm
So go and and smash the pedal in this getaway car
Am Am Dm
Let's take it too far, too far..........
Dm Am Am Dm Dm
Too far............., mhh
18. One More Ride
[Verse 1]
A A
Woke up this morning I had Mondo on my mind
G#m C#m
He came to me in a dream, he said "Roll I'm doing fine"
A A
It's been a while since he died but I talk to him all the time
G#m C#m
But to see him in the flesh, there ain't a cliff I wouldn't dive
A
I wish I could have a drink with slink
A
Tell him how his brother qauny doing
G#m C#m
Tell him how Pnote G, Kushy and Ballzal doing
A A
It breaks my heart to see what happened to Chop
G#m C#m
Man I just seen him at the video for Tears Could Talk
[Chorus]
A A G#m
I wish I had one more ride through the hood, blowing good with you
C#m A A G#m
I wish I could hide from the truth, but the truth is I fucking miss you (miss
you)
C#m A A
I would give all of this money away
G#m C#m
Trade it all for just one more day
A A G#m C#m
If I had one more ride, we could roll one last time (last time)
[Verse 2]
A A
Damn, it feels like a piece of me's missing
G#m C#m
It don't help when I'm riding and I start reminiscing
A A
When we pulled up, just you and me, to meet the three that Money Mike had
G#m C#m
We'd leave there, hit a side street, get a nine-piece and we'd split halves
A
These memories hit ya
A G#m
In love with the passion no matter what happened, I swear that I'd never
forget you
C#m A
I promised the fam I'd do all I can and try to look out for your children
A G#m
You're more than a friend to me, sipping this Hennessy thinkin' 'bout how much
I miss you
C#m
Cause I'm flipping through pictures, damn
A A
It's still me and Jerry G, I keep up with Marcus for ya
G#m C#m
Lil' Billy kept that 41 Culture going
[Chorus]
A A G#m
I wish I had one more ride through the hood, blowing good with you
C#m A A G#m
I wish I could hide from the truth, but the truth is I fucking miss you (I
C#m
miss you)
A A
I would give all of this money away
G#m C#m
Trade it all for just one more day
A A G#m C#m A
If I had one more ride, we could roll one last time
[Verse 3]
A
One last one, one last one
G#m
Ice in the kitchen, we back in the bowls
C#m
Grub wasn't working, Jelly wanna know
A
We turned the back roads
A
One last one, one last one
G#m C#m
I need to do with my bros, we live for each other
A A
Until one passed, two passed, three passed, four
G#m
Lord knows I'm number 6, I'm gonna take 'em off hold
C#m
Gotta load my 60, I can't lose no more, I miss my lil' bro
A A
Remember we would laugh when times were so bad, (remember when times were bad)
G#m C#m
Ducking cops with crack rocks to buy from nash
A A
I just need one last one
G#m C#m
Conversation on the phone when they revoked my bond
A A
If I left this Earth first, you would take care' my son
E G#m C#m
But they raising one, so I take care of Mom
[Chorus]
N.C.
I wish I had one more ride through the
A G#m C#m
Hood, blowing good with you
A A G#m
I wish I could hide from the truth, but the truth is I fucking miss you.....
C#m
(miss you)
A A
I would give all of this money away
G#m C#m
Trade it all for just one more day
A A
If I had one more ride,
G#m C#m
We could roll one last time (last time)
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